[Manda (Kyleigh's Momm]

I'm 5 1/2 months postpartum. I made a doctor appt. finally for 10:45am this morning. And, i'm honestly thinking about cancelling.

Because. I'm not so much depressed as I am angry. I'm not sure what depression really is. I am angry. I start fights with my husband for no reason. With anybody really. I hate pregnant people bc I'm jealous. I can't be happy for anybody. Idk. I am extremely irritable and get stressed easily. I just don't know. I feel this is gonna ruin my marriage. And I don't want that bc I'm not meaning to be so mean!

But honestly. I don't want my doc to look at me weird bc this isn't depression. Sure, I cry but I mean, I don't have ANY thoughts of suicide or death or anything like normal depressed people, I guess.

Plus, what kinda meds are they gonna give me for anger? I just don't know.

I'm not crazy. I'm just angry. Idk why. Maybe it's my birth control pill. IDK!

Any advice? What should I do? Whats my doctor gonna do?

[MAX BOY]

YOU JUST SOUND SCARED TO DO WHAT YOU KNOW YOU MUST DO TO REMAIN A NORMAL HAPPY WOMAN. FOR SO MANY MONTHS YOU WERE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION AND NOW YOUR JUST ONE OF THE GROUP, YOU HAVE TO LEARN TO COPE WITH THE REAL WORLD-- AND YES YOU DO SOUND DEPRESSED. DON'T BE AFRAID TO GET BETTER GO FOR THE DAMN APPT.

[Hope]

Think of this Dr appt. as:

an investment in your marriage
as a step toward being the kind of mommy you'd want your child to have
as a desire to not be emotionally churning and upset inside
for your own peace of mind

A Dr doesn't expect you to come in and declare your DIAGNOSIS.
He does expect you to come in and state your problems - like dumping out a jig-saw puzzle for him to put together - for him to give the diagnosis and treatment. That's exactly what he is there for.

besides - if you cancel this late, you'll have to pay for it anyway. Go in.
Give the Dr a chance to point you in the right direction, or to relieve your mind. You deserve that much. So does your family.

(by the way, anger is a major symptom of depression, too.)

[Kem]

Please go to your appointment and just talk to your doctor. Your doctor will be able to help you figure out what's going on with you at the moment. You keep saying "you don't know" what's going on with you, I think that's a good reason to go. Anger can be a symptom of depression. You don't have to be suicidal to be depressed.

Whatever it is, your doctor should be able to help you out. It might mean counselling rather than drugs, it might mean seeing how you're doing over the next few weeks. Your doctor isn't there to judge you so please go.